Random.

I love the feeling of knowing that I helped someone accomplish something they never thought was possible. It is the most amazing feeling that I have ever felt. In my freshmen year of high school, we have to do a physical education test where one of the criteria is to run the mile under a certain time. I was able to do my mile under 8 minutes, but there was this guy who could not do it. Yeah he slacked off, but I he really wanted to pass his mile test. He asked me for help to go running with him and I agreed, I pushed him hard to his limit never makinf him stop even to walk. My p.e. teacher is like your pushing him to hard, but I wanted him to pass once he was finished he made it at exactly 8:59, he shaved off about two minutes!!! Hr was soo ecstatic that he hugged me with a big smile and a "thank you". The feeling was undescrible, I know that I could never put into words how much it meant for me to help him pass his test.Because of me. I knew in that moment that being a teacher was the right choice for me, and that I didn't want to do anything else. Maybe its just me, but I know what I was meant to do with my lide, sure maybe I won't make a lot of money but at least I will be happy. Only life can tell what's gonna happen in the five to ten years all I can hope for is the best. Who knows what life might bring to me in the future all I know is as long is I have my family to support me and something to look forward to I'll be alright.
 xoxo,
bee

overwhelming.

It's overwhelming all of it sometimes, feeling that you might fail at something and the person that you must disappoint is actually yourself. School is overwhelming sometimes going back and forth and feeling always tired it sucks sometimes but, we have to keep going looking at the positives in life instead of the negative. I guess this blogs helps, I like to read along the way to relive stress but since finals are coming it it gets more stressful each day trying to make the grade because you don't understand the material and the teacher is not good at explaining it. I feel sorry for him, it seems that this is not what he wants to be doing... almost as he has given up in life which makes me sad because it makes me think  what made him get to this point. Sometimes I want to help him, but how do you help someone that does care anymore and makes so hard to reach out to them if they are not putting any effort into doing their job. Yet, I always believe their is good in people even int he tiniest bit there is something there, or maybe I'm just naive, probably. I've been through my set of challenges that you can't trust people it just makes me feel sad that some people are alone and that so many things happen they just don't care anymore. what do they believe in or look froward too? who do they look upon? I guess it just makes me sad...I wonder if they hope to be happy someday too. 

                                                                                  xoxo,

                                                                                    bee

new year 2011

So I am writing this blog at almost 2:30 am, and I am not the least bit tired..wait till the morning. So as this year came to an end, I realize that I have grown so much and taken a few steps back along the way to. I learned that sometimes you can't get along with your parents, pushing people away will get you nowhere, and that I'm not a little kid anymore and don't have the privilege to runaway from things but I have to learn how to confront them straight on..which I am so awful at! While celebrating this new years I got a surprise visit from some old neighbors that I used to know my whole life, I remember running around with one of the kids we used to get along so well always hyper...he's so big now I cant believe that he's not a little kid anymore well neither am I..but still I guess it's kinda hard to know that our childhood ended a long time ago but proud to know that he is doing good in school just like me.=] So a new year brings new challenges, some goodbyes, some tough decisions that will be hard to make but as long as i have my family to support me and my bestie there to knock some since in me now and then I have to believe that things will be okay because if it's not then it's not the end just the beginning.
                                                                                                                             
                                                                                                                                xoxo,
                                                                                      Bee